I had an amazing experience a few months ago which started my new journey. This is what I wrote at that time.
Today I am feeling something I have never felt before.
It’s hard to describe how I feel right now. I thought the best feeling in the world was being extremely happy. But I am not feeling happy right now. I’m not feeling sad. The best word I can find is “content”. I feel like everything is all right in this world. That everything is the way it was meant to be.
I feel calm and relaxed. Extremely at peace.
I have the perfect best friend who is like a brother to me. I have the perfect job that I enjoy. I have hobbies that make me smile and friend circles who accept me completely.
Right now, even though I have all this stuff – friend, job, hobbies – I don’t seem to be attached to them. Even if I lose them, I feel that I will still be as content as I am now, and accept it as the way it was meant to be.
I was talking to strangers today, and it didn’t feel like an effort. I didn’t have to think about what to say or about how they perceived me. I didn’t feel satisfaction after talking to them. I didn’t feel disappointed after talking to them. I just felt content.
I realized that I see no reason to ever hurt anyone and just want everyone to feel what I am feeling. Right now, I believe the best in others and all I want to do is help others bring out the best in themselves and feel as content as I feel right now.
I notice that for some reason my chest feels like it is about to burst (in a good way). I don’t know how long this feeling will last. But it feels really, really nice.
I find myself laughing for no reason at all. I find myself enjoy watching the leaves fluttering in the wind and can watch it for hours without getting bored. I love the feeling of opening up all my senses and allowing them to get overwhelmed by all the colors, sounds and feelings around me.
I love my life.
I looked around, asked around and read around. I believe other people before me have had this experience. Some people call it enlightenment, others calling it the awakening of the kundalini.
One interesting thing that has happened since then is that I no longer feel a “NEED” to achieve goals. I am perfectly happy where I am without ever needing anything more. However now I can pursue goals just because I “WANT” to, without needing to ever achieve them. Which means, I no longer feel the urge to rush towards them, and can take my time enjoying the journey to get there. It makes the journey a whole lot more fun