Words with meaning
I once had the most unusual experience.
Someone had just said to me the words “Thank you”. Just these two words, nothing else.
Now ordinarily, I would never consider an occurrence like this to be anything unusual. However what made this day and this specific event unusual was that I didn’t just hear the words, I felt them.
In that moment it felt like the two of us were the only two people in this world, and the only feeling I could feel inside me was this person’s gratitude towards me. I couldn’t look away and I couldn’t feel anything except that feeling of gratitude. It felt like time had frozen still and this moment would last forever.
Now this didn’t makes any sense to me at all. Words weren’t supposed to work like this. Words were just sounds we made with our mouths because our parents and teachers had taught us to make certain specific sounds at specific times or during specific occasions.
Words weren’t supposed to have these kinds of feelings attached to them, and the feelings definitely weren’t supposed to be so strong that you could feel them when you heard the words.
All my life I’d heard people speak using words that they didn’t really mean, asking me how I was doing when they didn’t really care, apologising when they weren’t really sorry. I had been taught the same thing, to say words I was supposed to whether or not I meant them.
But that day, I realised something very, very important, that words weren’t just what I had always thought they were. There could be more to words than just the sounds that most people uttered, and it was possible to communicate with the intention of conveying a genuine feeling behind those words.
In fact, words by themselves didn’t matter at all. It was the feeling behind the words that really mattered.
It was this feeling that gave words their meaning, and if you didn’t feel anything when saying the words then the words were just meaningless.
That dayI realised that I too wanted to learn to communicate like this, to use words with feeling so others could feel them in my words.
Since that day, I found it harder and harder to connect with people who used words without feeling, but whenever I met people whose words I could feel, I found that we connected in such a way that sometimes we didn’t even need to use words.
Nowadays, each and every day I try to get better and better at communicating my feelings, so that one day I can learn how to convey everything that I feel, with or without words.